Said it twice and now say it again. I’m so done with it.
I have applied for self-exclusion everywhere online.
It is understandable that it does not immediately relieve the moment that you have decided that you do not want to continue a day in this way. Have often experienced it yourself, because if you decide to stop, a bowl of misery will come over you first. This has to do with the fact that as long as you are in the vicious circle, everything keeps turning, no matter how wrong, but there is movement in it. The moment you stop, you stand still and first the cloud of dust comes over you that you always want to stay ahead of. After stopping, I often felt even more miserable for 1 or 2 months, but that’s just tough.