This week has again been the “payday” week, which has caused extra tension to date.
I hoped that this 2nd x would be a bit quieter, but that was quite disappointing. Monday went well and in the evenings I did the finances with my confidant. Repayments have been made in recent months, which means that not everything has gone to accounts and repayment arrangements in one day this month. Although it’s only a little bit that just got me through the month.
Tuesday I had a great day at work and when I was almost home, I suddenly got a heavy gambling urge, and I was already working on where I was going to gamble, how much and as quickly as possible. Although this often happens and is part of the process, it is always a bit of a shock and exciting. Your normal sensible thoughts suddenly disappeared and out of the blue decided to get off the train and walk towards a casino. Fortunately I was able to correct myself on the way and bought some food and got back on a train.
Super stupid and clumsy, because by getting out I created a serious risk. Fortunately I didn’t gamble and half an hour later I ran into an acquaintance, and we had a drink in the pub. This felt like a reward that I hadn’t gambled and like a wake-up call. Think I should be a bit more alert on these first days of salary and barely have any money with me. Because a week later there is little sigh.
Probably because I never gambled much in the last months of the month, because then the survival mode was busy. Fortunately I was able to correct myself on the way and bought some food and got back on a train. Super stupid and clumsy, because by getting out I created a serious risk. Fortunately I didn’t gamble and half an hour later I ran into an acquaintance, and we had a drink in the pub.
This felt like a reward that I hadn’t gambled and like a wake-up call. Think I should be a bit more alert on these first days of salary and barely have any money with me. Because a week later there is little sigh. Probably because I never gambled much in the last months of the month, because then the survival mode was busy.
Fortunately I was able to correct myself on the way and bought some food and got back on a train. Super stupid and clumsy, because by getting out I created a serious risk. Fortunately I didn’t gamble and half an hour later I ran into an acquaintance, and we had a drink in the pub. This felt like a reward that I hadn’t gambled and like a wake-up call. Think I should be a bit more alert on these first days of salary and barely have any money with me. Because a week later there is little sigh. Probably because I never gambled much in the last months of the month, because then the survival mode was busy.
Fortunately I didn’t gamble and half an hour later I ran into an acquaintance, and we had a drink in the pub. This felt like a reward that I hadn’t gambled and like a wake-up call. Think I should be a bit more alert on these first days of salary and barely have any money with me. Because a week later there is little sigh. Probably because I never gambled much in the last months of the month, because then the survival mode was busy. Fortunately I didn’t gamble and half an hour later I ran into an acquaintance, and we had a drink in the pub. This felt like a reward that I hadn’t gambled and like a wake-up call.
Think I should be a bit more alert on these first days of salary and barely have any money with me. Because a week later there is little sigh. Probably because I never gambled much in the last months of the month, because then the survival mode was busy.
In addition to this somewhat difficult moment, there are also many beautiful effects of the right choices. Can reward myself again on an extra accessory for the furnishing, which I have worked for and which makes me happy.
Positive feedback that everything is neatly paid off without asking 10x but proactively correct. I notice this week that I have to be alert not to buy too many unnecessary luxuries like sandwiches, because there is now some money. You don’t need it and don’t need it, but getting up later makes you lax and thinking too easy. I’ll keep an eye out for this for the rest of the month.